One day you will look back and be so glad you chose to keep going, even without knowing how everything would turn out. You will be glad you rose above the doubt that your significance was too small. You will be glad you did not give up and you chose to give your all.
You won’t be able to see it all right now. You won’t be able to see how it all turns out right here in the middle of this journey. However, this doesn’t mean your presence doesn’t matter. That doesn’t mean you can’t continue to sow seeds as you keep on traveling.
Remember this when you feel like you’ve done all you could do, but it didn’t seem to be enough for them. This doesn’t mean what you did was in vain. You are still free to carry on knowing the seeds you have sown still matter. Even if nothing seemed to change about them, something changed in you: you learned to wake up to your worth and find that you would still grow how you were meant to, no matter who did or did not appreciate you.
Years from now, when you look back on this season, you may be surprised at how certain relationships have changed over the years. You might be happy with some of the relationships that evolved in positive ways you were not expecting. You might be grieved or discouraged by others that eventually fell apart. There are so many factors that contribute to the way a relationship can change over the years, and there’s no way you can single-handedly control this. However, you can choose to find peace in knowing that through it all, you continued to sow good seeds. You continued to be the one who did not let the shortcomings of others distract you from who were becoming. This does not mean that the actions of others will not affect you, and you should never, ever let anyone walk over you. But just remember this: they do not have any power over your soul or the seeds you choose to sow. They do not control the sun, the rain, the soil, or anything else required for your seeds to spring up from the ground into their bloom. There is still time for you. And one day you will look back and see that your seeds grew in the way they were meant to.
Morgan Harper Nichols
Morgan Harper Nichols is a poet and artist. Her work is inspired by real life and in-the-moment experiences, including interactions with others. At the heart of what she shares is the believe that art and creativity are valuable ways to connect with others about matters most.